going for more spins

i joined the spinning class yesterday.... and i'm beginning to like it. will try to increase my class to twice a week, instead of once a week.

my aim by end of august is to fit into my cheong sam again. a really nice silver cheong sam i've not been able to fit in since i came back from australia. my trainer is helping me achieve that aim.

will update again end of august.

Age mellows my temper?

I really think age is catching up on me.

you know how people always say as they grew older, they became more patient? Well, i just realized that although i drive to work every morning, my temper has improved compared to a few years ago. I no longer scream and swear at other drivers... i just merely let them do their idiotic acts. Just have to make sure that i'm not caught in their mistakes.

Hard to believe eh? Maybe i'm speaking too soon... for i've only been driving to work for a month.

Either that, or i've finally accept bad traffic as a way of life here.

Inspirational for myself

My new found inspiration...

"Some people believe that holding on and hanging in there are signs of strength, but there are times in life when it takes much more strength to just let go"

Improving...

2nd training session yesterday and i'm not aching. yoo-hoo!!! a good sign... but Subash told me that he's gonna 'kill' me next week when he increase the weights and the sets...

another thing i learnt about him yesterday... he has a tattoo that he regrets having. didn't probe further but my guess is that it's probably an initial of his ex or something like that...

maybe i'll ask him when i see him next... or is that too nosy?

Being spontaneous

It was supposed to be a short visit to the salon for a simple trim turned out to be a 4 hours affairs in a hair salon over the weekend, i now sport violet purple highlights! This is shocking news to people around me because i've had always kept my hair in its original colour of black... and the moment i decided to dye my hair & have highlights... i opted for violet purple instead of safer colours like brown.

WHY??? The truth is... I DON'T KNOW!!!

Someone at work told me i was brave to have chosen violet.
Another someone thought that i was crazy and cannot imagine the outcome.
Someone didn't really like the colour because it didn't look natural.
Another someone commented that i should stop making drastic changes to my appearance.

End result? I love it! I love it! I love it!

No pain no gain??

Until recently, the most pricey thing that i've ever bought so far was a digital camera. And what may have surpassed this?

The answer is a gym membership PLUS 12 hours of training under a watchful eye of a personal trainer. Actually the gym membership wasn't that expensive, the killer was actually hiring a personal trainer. I still haven't got the faintest idea why i did that. It wasn't like i had a lot of money to dispose of! In fact, i did all these while i was still jobless!

Anyway, i had my 1st training session with my trainer yesterday. His name is Subash and he stays in Puchong. That's all i know for now. So we did weights yesterday because i need to increase my endurance and strength. "Nothing too major, will just keep things light & easy", so he says. So why on earth did i wake up this morning with aching arms and abs?!?! Actually i know the answer. It was difficult to be in denial because at one point Subash declared "gosh... your abs and triceps are so weak"! I was like... errrr... thanks for noticing, but do you have to say it out loud?!?! Geez!!

To make matter worse... i'm such a klutz and hopeless when it comes to group classes. I joined a spinning class last week and the next day i had a sore bum. Last weekend i tried power step and it was crap because i was lost half the time and they make it seems so easy on television. I also tried the MTV Dance class last week and i felt like a robot. This is nothing like your weekend partying! The only class that i can perform really well is body combat. I suppose the only reason that i can follow the momentum and coordination is because i spent 12 years of my life practicing martial arts. Body combat is just like martial arts... but it includes the sports elements and music.

I think my muscles deserved some R&R. I'll not be stepping into the gym until probably Sunday. Until then... it's back to lepaking in Starbucks!

A different perspective... 5 months later...

I had an interesting conversation with a mate in Australia this morning. Our conversation goes something like this:

Friend : getting married soon?
Me : who the heck wanna marry me?? u know my 6 year r/ship has ended, don't you?
Friend : i didn't know that he ended it.... after all these years?
Me : after 6 freaking years and no reason was given. geez... still trying to really get over it
Friend : u will never forget. just learn to let go.
Me : yeah... i was hoping we'll get back but now i just let it go
Friend : hoping to get back is the worst. just let go, mate.
Me : i'm better now... letting it go... a bit painful.. but i'll be alrite but somedays when i'm down... i can't help but hope he was still there
Friend : the pain will be there forever ok? it just lessens over time. but the pain will always be there. well, the wrong thing to do is to rush into another relationship. better be frank than to pretend to empathise with you.

blah... blah... blah... we went on to talk about something else... and then the conversation steered back to my relationship...

Friend : BTW, I knew you and Leo would not last. You were just putting in so much
Me : why do you think that?
Friend : ...and he wasn't.
Me : u could see it ?? but then why waited til 6 years????
Friend : ppl always ask me that and i always say - when you've been a damn teacher/lecturer and handled 8,500 students; you know.....

The conversation has actually made me think about things again... but in a good sort of way because it has provided me a differenct kinda perspective.... although it is 5 months late... but it's better late than never.

My new job

Today is my 3rd day on the job. Today i feel better. Today i feel more in control of situations.