what should i do??

So I thought i would have found closure after the betrayal. But the truth is, I'm doing worse. We had a talk and from then onwards, there're just so many questions that they are driving me nuts.

We wanna patch things up. But how are we gonna patch things up when he's still seeing that biatch? Can I trust him the way I trusted him before? If he really wants to try to work things out between us shouldn't he be calling me more often? Shouldn't he put more effort in seeing me? Instead, he hasn't called since Monday. My heart is telling me to forget about it because I have a funny feeling that the reason he called was because she was not available.

I'm not a stalker, but my sources told me that she has been away for training and will only be back probably tomorrow. My source has also told me that she has denied the relationship with him. I mean, how sad is that? How can a relationship survive when there are so many lies? It's been months, and he has not even brought her home. He's friends are not aware of the new girl in his life. In fact, everyone has been fooled all along. I believe in karma and the fact that what goes around, comes around. With the revelation of her denying the relationship means something?

The decision should be an easy one. I should just cut clear of everything that has to do with him. I should just end our friendship.

But on the other hand, what if this is all a test? God would not put me through such a tough test, would he? What if I do not meet anyone again? People make mistakes, but they do deserve a 2nd chance, don't they?

I'm really going nuts over this matter. Hence, I have decided that I will be seeking a help from a medium to make a decision for me.

slap stick silly

there's no better way to cheer myself up than watching slap-stick comedy. in no time, i was laughing so hard that i almost chocked on my food!

Dude, Where's My Car is about two bumbling stoners, who woke up one morning from a night of partying and cannot remember where they parked their car which prompts them on a journey to find it.

Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle is quite similar to the former movie, but the lead actors are asians - one a Korean American investment banker; the other an Indian American medical school candidate -- go through a life changing journey, as they spend a night roaming the state of New Jersey in search of White Castle hamburgers.

i never enjoyed sunday nite this much!! no sunday nite blues as i laughed them all away!

my 2006 list (updated)

4 days into 2006 and i have not figured out my new year resolutions. i've never really made new year resolutions and i don't believe in them... so why should i start this year? but then again, maybe i should set goals for myself to achieve this year. so when the end of 2006 comes around, i can have an annual review on my achievements! we're only on the 4th day of 2006 and i'm already thinking about the end of it! muahahahahhaha....

so my goals for this year are:

1. to get fit and run a half marathon
2. to get fitter and run a full marathon
3. to get fitter and make at least a new friend at the gym
4. to be nicer to my sis
5. to be nicer to my parents
6. to go see angkor wat
7. to attend my friend's wedding in bangkok, and shop
8. to visit my friend and cousin in singapore
9. to get an increment
10. to get a newer car
11. to clear off all my credit card debt

i think that should be all... can't have too many goals or else i'll drive myself crazy! will be updating on my progress from time to time...