where are you heading?

i'm depressed.

i'm depressed because people around me are experiencing life changing moments, both professionally and personally, and i seem to be the only one stuck in a rut. actually, not so much of 'stuck' but more like i'm not being able to change gear... not even into a second gear! don't get me wrong, i'm happy for these people... yet somehow i'm jealous and sometimes it makes me feel jaded. what make things worse is the fear of losing them:

losing my aussie buddy to canada.
losing one of my girlfriend to her job due to her huge promotion.
losing another one of my girlfriend to a town 2 hours away.