life's a bitch, live with it...

i can see clearly now...

2007-09-13T08:58:00.000+08:00

merdeka weekend has come and gone.
my birthday has come and gone too.
so what's been happening & what's new?

let's start with merdeka weekend. due to the dry spell in july and august, i was totally looking forward to merdeka weekend. not only it's a public holiday, i was even more excited because i was going to penang again with my family - with my 7 month niece in tow - and it was a great holiday. a tad too short a holiday, but a holiday nonetheless. upon arrival, it was food... glorious food all the way. on arrival lunch itself, i couldn't decide if i missed laksa more or fried koey teow more... i ended up with both on my table! went back for a nap, and about 4.30pm, it was off to padang brown for my must-not-miss-when-in-penang lok lok. i was so bloated from all the food. the following day was about the same, with chee cheong fun for breakfast, laksa & fried koey teow again for lunch, mua chee for tea and don't know what else for dinner. i gained a good 3 kg from that weekend.

about 2 weeks later, it was my 29th birthday. well, it would be my 30th birthday according to the chinese calender. no big celebration, just an extravagant gift i got for myself - brand new eyesight. yes... i went for lasik and good bye glasses and contacts!

i'll start my training for singapore marathon again this week. would really like to start swimming again too, but due to the lasik, i have to stay away from the pool for a month. well, at least i can still run and go for my rpm classes.

25th August 2007, 12.40am

2007-08-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

the day marks the passing of one of my favourite cousin - yew koko.
you'll forever be in my heart.
rest in peace.

where have i been?

2007-07-24T19:05:00.000+08:00

yes, i’ve been slacking with my blog (and my running) and i owe my royal readers a mega update on what’s been happening since my last entry. be prepared, this might be the longest entry ever!

i’ve been slacking with my bloging and my running because i’ve been traveling. i missed the much anticipated penang bridge international marathon in june because i was away in bali. frankly speaking, i was ready to give bali a go but my parents and colleagues thought i was insane to choose the run instead of bali. anyway, to cut the long story short, bali won the vote. the one thing that i was very keen on doing while in bali was to go paragliding. unfortunately, you need 2 to go, and i was the only wacko that signed up with the tour agent there. boo-hoo again. overall, it was still a fun trip – with partying, drinking, some shopping, getting a temporary tattoo, spa, manicure, lovely barbeque seafood at jimbaran bay, fresh air in kintamani, beautiful sunset at tanah lot.

about 4 days after arriving home from bali, i was packing up again, to istanbul this time around. this trip was such a last minute arrangement, that i got my air tickets only the day before i left, and i only managed to go to the money changer and get a copy of lonely planet while in the airport. istanbul is so rich culturally and historically, it’s just fascinating! not to mention, expensive too. but hey… it was worth every cent spent. in euros mind you. i was such a champ there, 2 days upon arrival; i was taking the public transportation there like a local. buses and trains was the way to go and kebabs were my meal. when i was there, i was quite tempted to purchase a ticket to athens, as it cost only 90 euros return. but with the amount of loan i took from my parents for this trip, i needed a job to come back to. istanbul is a melting pot of civilisation and religion; with christians, muslims and the jews all living together. i was being a kiasu tourist and visited all the top 10 sites and more during my 1 week stay in istanbul.

then it was off to kuching for the 10th annual rainforest music festival. how much drama will one experience, since it’s only sarawak right? i tell you, the drama started upon my arrival at KLIA. my flight was scheduled at 11.45am and when i arrived at 10am, all excited and happy, i was told that the flight has been delayed until 2.45pm. gosh! i was about to rot in KLIA, luckily i bumped into a lot of other people i know who were on the same flight. do we started bitching. the flight only took off about 4pm!!! i was so close to getting off the plane that time. it is also this weekend that i experienced home stay – long house style! this is no joke! i shall say it was quite an experience. 16 people in a long house with only one shared bathroom & toilet. considering that i paid RM250 per night for a long house stay, i thought it was such a rip off. but what to do? every other hotel is fully booked out.

hence, it was 3 continuous weekend of traveling and no running. darn. i’m so over weight now. however, i’m still going to proceed with my adidas king of the road half marathon on 5th Aug and the star PJ half marathon the weekend after. i think i’ll most probably drop dead and die while attempting to complete the race. oh well… never try, never know. wish me luck.

where are you heading?

2007-06-13T18:37:00.000+08:00

i'm depressed.

i'm depressed because people around me are experiencing life changing moments, both professionally and personally, and i seem to be the only one stuck in a rut. actually, not so much of 'stuck' but more like i'm not being able to change gear... not even into a second gear! don't get me wrong, i'm happy for these people... yet somehow i'm jealous and sometimes it makes me feel jaded. what make things worse is the fear of losing them:

losing my aussie buddy to canada.
losing one of my girlfriend to her job due to her huge promotion.
losing another one of my girlfriend to a town 2 hours away.

tick tock

2007-06-07T08:52:00.000+08:00

this week is passing by way too slowly for my liking and besides work, it has been quite an uneventful week too.

New Balance Pacesetters 15km Run, 20th May 2007

2007-05-22T18:26:00.000+08:00

can't you tell that i had such a good run last sunday? still can pose for the camera man! hahahahahha. having said that, although it was an enjoyable run, it was also a tough course because there were 4 hills to 'climb'. i think my fuel belt was really useful as it kept me hydrated and energize me.

crossing the finishing line... quite disappointed with my timing. i was aiming for a 01:30:00 timing, instead, i finished at 01:40:05.

joy ride

2007-05-14T14:40:00.000+08:00

many years ago, i used to drive my pregnant-with-triplets boss to all our meetings in town, and whenever i had her in my car, i get all stressed out. i’m doubly aware of the surrounding, maintained speed limit, double check before cutting lane with the indicator lights on and no swearing. how can you swear in front of a triplets bearing lady, right??

anyway, moving on to last weekend, i had my niece riding in my car for the first time. we were all going out for a simple mother’s day dinner at shakey’s outside my house. it was the most stressful 15 drive on my entire 11 years of driving. although my car comes with dual-airbags and abs breaking, it doesn’t mean shit as the other reckless motorists made me upset. i had to keep myself super alert, driving at no more than 60km/p, with indicator lights switched on for every turn i made, 15 mins felt like forever!

we had a good time out and here’s a photo to prove it.

an interesting conversation

2007-05-04T10:25:00.000+08:00

awhile ago during dinner, my brother decided to have a chat with me on my social life, or more precisely, the non-existence of it. the conversation went something like this:

koko: so, what you doing with your life?

me: just living it… chilling, doing my own thing.

koko: what do you mean ‘chilling’? frankly speaking, i expected more from you, ah girl. where are you heading in your life? have you thought about relationships and settling down in the future?

me: no. i’m not thinking about any relationships because i’m just not bothered about it. i don’t want to think about it. i’m happy with my life now - working, running, traveling.

koko: you’re not thinking about your life because you are running away from your problems, you’re living in denial.

me: huh???!!! living in denial? but i truly am happy. can i just have dinner, please?

koko: ok lar… but think about what i’m saying here. you’re not getting any younger.

the weekend after that conversation, i went to singapore, and continue on with my weekend runs here and there.

now that i’m back, i’m starting to think about what my big bro was trying to get at. the people around me are all either getting married or are already married or planning to get married. even my friends in singapore are tying the knot. i’m suppose he’s afraid that i’ll be left on the shelf.

i have nothing against marriages. i’m happy for all my married friends and to all those who are getting married. but personally, i’m just very jaded when it comes to relationship because i know of so many divorces; plenty of two-timing cheating relationships and countless affairs. personally, i’ve been a victim myself.

so tell me… why shouldn’t i be happily single for now? or perhaps, forever.

Leave me alone

2007-04-25T19:15:00.000+08:00

You come to me everyday, telling me that you woke up at the wrong side of the bed again.
You come to me everyday, complaining to me how agitated you feel.
You come to me everyday, bitching about the same things, about the same people.

Truth to be told, I’m really sick and tired of it.

Grow up.
Get out.
Move on.

Life’s a bitch, so live with it.

bundle of joy

2007-04-24T10:03:00.000+08:00

baby szye is the cutest!! she's one of the reasons i wanna go home early nowadays, so that i can play with her before she goes to sleep.

it is also great being an aunt because i get to spoil my niece all i want, and then let her parents deal with her later. i can play with her until i'm tired, then let her parents take care of her later.

September baby

2007-04-20T16:04:00.000+08:00

The bimbo in me loves all these quizzes and stuffs on your date of birth or month of birth or year of birth... let's see how true this reading is...

SEPTEMBER=LOVER - don't think so
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret - quite true, but i rarely have regrets because i don't believe in dwelling on the past
Attractive - well, if it was true, i won't be single.
Strong mentality - hell yeah!
Loves attention - this is so wrong, i'm hate attention
Diplomatic - sometimes
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems - not really. it's hard enough to solve my own problems
Brave and fearless - kinda true
Adventurous - yeah!
Loving and caring - hmmmmm
Usually you have many friends - i do?
Stubborn - oh, my boss will totally agree with this
Hasty - sometimes, but i'm growing wiser with age
Loves to travel and explore - totally!
Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand - beats me

@#%!

2007-04-13T09:08:00.000+08:00

i'm pissed
i'm frustrated
i'm disappointed
i'm annoyed
i'm tired
i'm sick

i'm just feeling a lot of negativity in me this morning.

girly girl nite out

2007-04-12T11:23:00.000+08:00

i really looking forward to tomorrow night. as usual, it's going to a girls out night with my best friend... but this time, it's gonna be a real girly girl event as we're heading to the cinema to watch a chick flick - catch and release.

this is the 1st movie we're catching since her wedding almost 2 YEARS ago!!
i'm leaving office at 6pm SHARP tomorrow.. woo-hoo!!

going as planned

2007-04-10T08:52:00.000+08:00

this is yet another race weekend for me - a running race weekend, that is.
it is nothing fancy as it's only a 10km run. however, i do intent to maintain consistency and finish the run within 60 mins.

i've also registered for a 15km run in may. my aim is to finish that run within 90mins. in between the 2 race, i'll still have my long weekend runs.

i should be able to get in shape for the 21km penang bridge run in june.

i can't wait! haven't been back to penang in ages... and i'm already planning of the yummy food that awaits me after the run.

penang anyone??

Hanoi, March 2007

2007-04-02T08:38:00.000+08:00

my trip to hanoi was quite an adventure. in fact, the adventure started even before i left home. nonetheless, i always make the best out of everything and the trip was good. i'll definitely be going back there again for a longer stay. anyways, here are some photos from my trip.

chilling out on the junk deck at halong bay in the late afternoon.

sunrise @ halong bay. i spent a night on the junk. it was awesome!

traffic at the old quarter. i gave up waiting for a right time to cross the street. i just take a deep breath, and cross.

hanoi city at night fall.

ho chi minh mausoleum. apparently he's kept here in a glass coffin. i didn't get a chance to see it myself because it was closed!

another new purchase?

2007-03-30T09:52:00.000+08:00

my camera is dead!! how can it be dead??!! i've only had it for about 3 years and has probably used it for like... errrr... 20 times max?? and it's dead!! it won't switch on at all, hence, all my hanoi photos can't be downloaded :(

anyways, will be sending it back to the service centre, and hopefully it'll be given a new life. until then, hanoi photos will just have to wait.

trusted-beat-up-manual-off-white car

2007-03-21T08:52:00.000+08:00

i’ve been zipping and zapping around town in my trusted-beat-up-manual-off-white kancil lately, and the feeling is great!!

this trusted-beat-up-manual-off-white kancil of mine has been around the block and it has money cannot buy sentimental value to me. we went through college, ferried my friends and i to countless parties, mamak yum cha sessions, movies and shopping trips. it also saw me through my interviews, and my 1st job, and my 2nd job.

these are the reason buy it’s so hard for me to let go of my trusted-beat-up-manual-off-white kancil. these are the reasons why I still kept it after I up graded to a bigger car. these are also the reasons why my kancil will remain with me for a few more years to come.

Let the race begin!!

2007-03-19T15:23:00.000+08:00

Besides hanging out with my family and friends, there are 2 more events that I look forward to during the weekends :

1) my long runs and my long hours in the gym
2) Formula One season

What a great start to the new season of Formula One!!! My McLaren team did great (2nd & 3rd podium finish) and kudos Lewis Hamilton!! A podium finish for a rookie driver - he’s a rookie to watch out for!!!

Of course, I still love Kimi, and will be voting for him in the drivers’ constructors.

Can't wait for Sepang!!

this can't be good

2007-03-15T09:00:00.000+08:00

i've been having sleepless nights over.... *gasp*... WORK!!

Siem Reap, 24th - 28th Feb 2007

2007-03-05T16:32:00.000+08:00

at long last, i finally went to siem reap and conquered almost all the angkor temples. only 3 words to sum up my trip - hot, dusty & AMAZING!

i woke up at 4:30am and arrived at angkor wat about 5:30am to view the sunrise. this is the most amazing photo ever captured by me.

this is angkor thom. the king build about 55 of these statues and about 47 of them still remains until now. and every single facet is different!

all the ruins are still found in angkor wat. it's absolutely insane!!

and this is where they filmed tomb rider. man build the temples to conquer nature, and now, nature is taking back what it belongs.

a really good night out

2007-02-09T13:45:00.000+08:00

on 30th january - a dear friend came home for a visit and it was an awesome night out. we ate, we drank, and we became bluetooth file exchange freaks towards the end of the night. hopefully we will be meeting again by the end of the year. here are some photos from that great night out!

Famous Last Words

2007-02-06T16:37:00.000+08:00

my favourite song at the moment. in fact, it could be my theme song for the moment. this is by my chemical romance - an awesome band!

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay
I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

regaining my fitness

2007-01-12T10:23:00.000+08:00

i’ve been slacking on my training since the singapore marathon last december. with the festive season parties and the traveling, i could feel that i was gaining the pounds and losing my fitness.

i’ve also just recently identified the few major races that i would want to complete it – the first race being the KL International Marathon in March – and needed to start training again almost immediately.

now u fear that u won’t be able to complete in the marathon because my fitness has dropped tremendously. imagine me going to the gym yesterday, wanted to do my 45 min spinning and 30 min run… but instead after the 45 min spinning, i was feeling so light headed that i needed to sit down.

it feels like shit to feel so un-fit. with me being away in East Malaysia and Chinese New Year in feb, i have to figure out a way to improve my fitness and complete the KL International Marathon within the given 3 hour timeline.

2007 races

2007-01-10T17:35:00.000+08:00

here's a list of marathons that i'd like to participate this year:

Mar : KL International Marathon
Apr : Brooks Bonding Run
May : New Balance Pacesetters Run
Jun : Penang Bridge International Marathon
Aug : Adidas King of the Road Run
Sep : Genting TrailBlazer
Oct : TBC
Nov : TBC
Dec : Singapore International Marathon

with all these runs (and probably smaller competition in between) i have to start training again soon. gosh! i haven't stepped into the gym for weeks!!

adios! buena suerte!

2007-01-10T09:57:00.000+08:00

he leaves for madrid tonight.

he was my walking jukebox.
he was my entertainer when i was stressed out.
he was my breakfast / lunch buddy.

he will be missed.

1st weekend of 2007

2007-01-09T13:27:00.000+08:00

Neo60 is finally here in KL!! I haven’t seen her in almost 10 years, it’s insane, I know!! But we get to catch up and had a great time exploring Kuala Lumpur and here are the highlights of our weekend adventures:

5th January 2007
The public phones here ‘ate’ almost all of her coins and she ended up waiting for an hour before I went to pick her up from the train station.

Had a quick and simple dinner and then it was off to the mamak stalls – my favourite kinda hang out place because it’s open 24 / 7, it’s cheap and because I’m a true blue Malaysian.

Best part of that night – neo60 got herself a classic dvd. She actually found the Happy Ghost movie trilogy. This is a classic – dated all the way back to 1984!!

6th January 2007
We’re up and it was only 8am on a Saturday!! Since we’re up, might as well go out for breakfast. Usually breakfast is toast and milo for me but this weekend, we went to some Chinese coffee shop outside and had noodles for breakfast!!

Then it was off to the Petronas Twin Towers. Then it was to Central Market. Then we walked to Petaling Street. A visit to Petaling Street will not be complete if we didn’t stop by the Air Mata Kuching stall. Along the way we visited some temple around that area. Then we took the Monorail to Sungai Wang.

When night falls, we took a bus (yes!! Metrobus!!) to Titiwangsa for the launch of Visit Malaysia Year 2007.

7th January 2007
We woke up even earlier today @ 7:30am!! Visited the KLCC Sky Bridge and only managed have lunch about 2pm. Then it was off to Putrajaya, with me driving and neo60 looking out for directions!

8th January 2007
I had to go to work (sigh) and she left KL to Penang. Too bad the weekend went by so fast.

taking a chill pill

2006-12-22T09:14:00.000+08:00

these are the people that keeps me sane in the office

unfortunately, some of them will be leaving the company.

your company will be missed

*sob* *sob*

Mr & Mrs Smith

2006-12-21T09:39:00.000+08:00

congrats mate!!

race analysis

2006-12-11T11:27:00.000+08:00

overrated

2006-12-06T18:41:00.000+08:00

over the years, there's always praises about how beautiful the christmas decorations were in singapore...

after the marathon, i decided to spend the night hanging out along orchard road. the initial plan was to take a slow walk along orchard road and admire the beauty of lights and sounds... but this was all i saw ...

what a dissapointment!! after all the hype, and this was what greeted me?? what a joke!! malaysian mall has better decorations!

malaysia boleh! yeah =)

1:13:05

2006-12-05T17:47:00.000+08:00

that was how long it took me to complete 10km in the recent singapore marathon.

frankly speaking, i’m not too happy with that timing because it basically means that after 3 10km races; i’ve not improved my timing much. for all 3 races, i took more than an hour to complete.

on the bright side is… at least i was consistent. hahaha!! anyway, come 2007, i will be trying out for 21km, and put the 10km run behind me.

whoa!!

2006-11-15T18:56:00.000+08:00

i'm looking forward to the next few months with much anticipation and excitement. here's the run down of the year and into the first quarter of 2007:
Early Dec 2006
i'll be running in the singapore marathon. it is also time to catch up with friends there again. really looking forward to seeing the very pregnant yuri and gossiping with the rest like rachel, richard, adele, ethan & beatrice. ohhh... have to stock up on some chewing gums for the peeps down south!

Late Dec 2006
looking forward to the annual christmas dinner over at my cousin's. in addition to that, will be spending the new year countdown in bangkok! more importantly, i'll be attending a childhood friend's wedding. it's also going to be time to catch up with the latest happening with tanapol and phawin. and the shopping that awaits me there!!! how can i forget??? hmmm... besides the sheila masjid cd for pear & poj, what should i get for tony & phawin??

Jan 2007
will be spending the weekends with one of my closes cousin whom i've not seen in ages!! hopefully she doesn't speak to me in a heavy american accent. it's all about makan-ing and exploring malaysia! a real visit malaysia year 2007 for the both of us!!

Feb 2007
will be welcoming the chinese new year with a new addition into the family :)
and cambodia, here i come!!

Mac 2007
i'll be heading to vietnam with a girlfriend. we've spoke about going on a trip for 3 years and finally it's happening!!

with so much happening, i'll be broke. at least i'll be happily broke. hahahhahaha

A month already

2006-11-02T09:36:00.000+08:00

one of the down side of working / reporting to a boss who happens to be a friend can get pretty stressful at times. she has been my mentor and my friend thought out all my working life but it wasn’t until in this agency that i felt i had totally disappoint her.

it is tough to stay guarded all the time. it is tough to fight a battle every day while maintaining both mental and physical strength. but i have to try harder and i have to be able to maintain on top of the game all the time, not only for my own sake, but also for my boss’s sake because i have to make her look good to be able to make myself look good.

anyway, today is my 1 month anniversary with the new team. there has been quite a bit of ups and a bit of downs as well, but i’ve made some buddies here and they help make those shitty days better.

another 1 into the collection...

2006-10-27T13:56:00.000+08:00

... my swatch collection, that is. and this time around, i got a "jelly in jelly" collection, which basically are huge. this new watch is even larger than the "pop" collection, and frankly speaking, the surface of this new watch fits my entire wrist.

yes, it is big... and i love it!

it is a dragon design on the watch surface and the body of the dragon is the wrist strap, all every cleverly designed with white, black and shades of green.

i love it! i love it! i love it!

Happy Deeparaya!

2006-10-24T09:52:00.000+08:00

i’m just so happy that the raya break is here. i mean, it seems like i’ve been waiting for a public holiday for the longest time as the entire month of september seem to crawl by.

raya break also marks my almost-one-month stay with my new agency and t must say, things can only get better and busier. can you imagine, it’s only my 3rd week here and i’m already working on my 3rd pitch? in fact, i was already handed a pitch to work on on my very first day! the day when I couldn’t even remember any of my colleague’s name! but after a round of training, a buka puasa dinner, and some lunch outings, i’m getting along well with my team. i suppose the best way to get to know a fello malaysian is through food!

after this, i’m getting ready to attend a colleague’s open house. i can wait to savour the delicious delicacies there. but i’ll make sure that i hit the gym tomorrow morning.

speaking of hitting the gym, i’ve started jogging again last week. note that it’s jogging and not running. the ankle injury has really taken a toll on my stamina, but i’m not giving up. i have about 5 weeks to go before my singapore marathon and i’m going to finish the race running. i have added extra songs into my ipod’s running folder and the beat will help motivate me. and to assist in gaining better foot posture, i’ve have arch support inserted into all my shoes to prevent injury because i have flat feet.

back in the game

2006-10-04T12:27:00.000+08:00

being back amongst the big players of the advertising industry is pretty exciting. i realized that i’ve been spoilt and how much i’ve missed out on during my 18 months absent. what i have missed out was beyond the nice stationary box that welcomed me, it was beyond the really cool yellow chair that i’m sitting on. Instead, what i missed most was being in a team, learning from a good leader and also at the same time, horning my skills to be a better leader, the big clients and the industry software that was key in helping us with research. researches that will help us unveil the insights, which will then later be translated into strategies and campaigns.

?

2006-09-28T19:12:00.000+08:00

it's only about 8 weeks to my next race - the singapore marathon - in december and my sprained ankle is taking its time to heal, too slowly i would say. i've haven't been out running since last saturday and i'm getting more and more frustrated daily. i really hope i can run this weekend.

my 2 weeks break is also coming to an end as i start work this coming monday. problem is, the excitement has not kicked in. have i gotten too lazy?

feeling like an idiot

2006-09-25T13:57:00.000+08:00

i’m starting to hate air asia.

i’ll be attending a good friend’s wedding in bangkok come december and being the always-plan-ahead, never-leave-it-to-the-last-minute, responsible person that i am, i booked my tickets all the way back in june. i gave myself a pat on the back and crossed out yet another item on my to-do-list.

now, i feel like whacking myself on the head for booking my tickets so early in advance.

when it comes to traveling with air asia, i should know better than to plan anything ahead of time. by booking my ticket to bangkok 6 months in advance, that is the biggest mistake I’ve ever done in all my years of traveling. i mean, i’m a backpacker… and i’m good at getting the best deals... anyways...

with the countless promotions that air asia has, you never know when you’d get a rip off. due to my current unemployed status, i have all the time in the world and i went into the air asia website to just ‘have a look’ at their year end specials.

since i’ll be traveling during the christmas week, i was pretty sure that i have gotten the best deal because it being a super peak season, i booked my ticket in june, hence, i should be able to enjoy the best deal, right? WRONG!

if i were to book my tickets now, i would have saved RM200!!!! i have been ripped off!!! i cound have used that extra RM200 and got my friend a bigger Tiffany & Co wedding frame!!

arrrgghhh!! i don’t know if i should be pissed at myself for always insisting that i plan my holidays in advance, or i should be pissed with air asia!!

this is the life

2006-09-21T23:01:00.000+08:00

life is blissful at the moment.

i have the luxury of waking up when half the country is either in school or at work. hopefully all the sleep i am enjoying now will help reduce the dark eye bag that i have. there is no bad traffic to get on my nerves because i'm only out on the road during 'off peak' hours. the gym somehow has grown in size over night and it is now a haven because the choices are aplenty. it's like, when i step inside, there's no queue at the changing room. i could have just stood in front of the rows of treadmill and choose if i wanna watch MTV, or Discovery, or ESPN, or CNN, or Channel V while i run. if i'm in the mood to do my strength training, i have various fitball to choose from... should i use the blue fitball or the yellow fitball this time around? hmmmm... decisions, decisions, decisions!

then again, nothing lasts forever, and i am aware that this blissful life will soon come to an end. in fact, it will come to an end in about 10 days time. come that time, i'm expecting a 360 degree change in my lifestyle.

but i will look at the bright side things, as i always have... and look forward to the change.

28

2006-09-08T09:12:00.000+08:00

i've been trying to avoid the full responsibility of being an adult for the longest time, but this year, as i turn 28, i'm feeling the full impact of it. i mean, i knew i was an adult when i started paying taxes. then it was when i bought a 2nd insurance policy. then it was when my housing loan was approved. then it was getting a new car. with all these financial commitment... you just can't help but feel the real impact of adulthood! the only consolation is that by reckoning with myself that it can't be all that bad.

by turning 28... i also realise that i seem to be getting less and less friends. i'm just not as outgoing as before i suppose. or i'm just more picky nowadays with whom i befriend with. sometimes when i go into my friendster page, i can't help but notice that it is actually quite pathetic because i have less than 40 friends in there! then again, life is not based on how many friends you supposedly have in friendster rite?

by turning 28, i realise a lot of things... trivial things like i've been driving for the past 10 years, or that i've lived in the same house for the past 23 years, or that i've not met up with my cousin for at least 10 years and not visited her once. or that i've been working for the past 5 years and i'm slowly paving my way to go places.

turning 28 is interesting. i can't wait until i reach the big 3-0!

out of action again

2006-09-07T16:59:00.000+08:00

barely one week from stepping into the gym, i'm down and out of action again due to some fever and flu virus. it's so frustrating because i was really keen to start my new resistance band weight training program.

oh well... hopefully i can go back to the gym by this weekend.

and i've also registered for my next run. it would be the singapore half marathon in december. i would need to start training soon and this time, i'm hoping to improve my core muscles so that my back can support by legs when i run.

going mental

2006-09-05T09:23:00.000+08:00

lately, i've been bored out of my mind at work. my day at work goes like this :

... switch on computer
... check office emails (getting less and less)
... go online and read the daily headlines
... go online and see who is available for chats online (usually not many people)
... go online and surf the net on hollywood gossips, travel destinations, race dates, fitness journals
... be the office receptionist sometimes by answering phones and trasfering calls
... go for lunch
... browse through magazines
... yay! 6pm, i either go home or head to the gym

top management! please spare me this agony and let me go!

gym-junkie

2006-08-30T09:38:00.000+08:00

i stepped into the gym again after a 2 week hiatus... and it was such a great feeling to be able to cycle and run and sweat again!

at first i thought of just attending the spinning class to 'get-into-the-rhythm-and-momentum' since i just recovered from a calf injury... BUT... i went on and did a 3km run after the spinning class.

i'm glad that i hadn't lost too much stamina because i need to improve my stamina for the next race.

bugger off

2006-08-29T12:13:00.000+08:00

i haven't been the friendliest person in the office since last friday. in fact, i've been a total biatch. could you really blame me when top management has been playing childish games on me?

deep shit

2006-08-24T10:14:00.000+08:00

i'm in deep shit... financial shit that is... and financial shit is one of the worst shit you can get yourself into... it is going to be some really tough months ahead of me if i want to get out of this shit... sigh...

post sentosa x-terrain run

2006-08-23T10:16:00.000+08:00

i'm back from the sentosa x-terrain race in singapore and the race was... AWESOME!

19th August :
i reached singapore early saturday morning with a sore throat and cough. my cousin was concern about my cough because it might lead to something serious and she went on and on about some medical stuffs that i couldn't be arsed about. anyways... i told her i was not going to waste her $S25 registration by not completing. plus, she has also bought me brand new outfit for the race - dri-fit top and pants. i had to run, right? so when night arrived, we loaded ourselves with carbo by having yummy meat pasta.

20th August:
race day!! woke up at 5:30am and had breakfast. need all the carbo i can get... all thanks to my cousin. even her hubby who was not running was up that early because he had to drive us to sentosa. the crowd was massive. i reckon there were about 3000 runners. looking at the crowd and 10 mins to flagged off, i suddenly had butterflies in my tummy and felt like puking.
the race began at 7:45am and i started running. the hilly tracks started 300 meters into the race course. i had been training for hilly tracks so i was prepared for it. but the real killer came when i hit the beach. it was only a 2km stretch but i stopped running after probably 100meters and started walking. even walking was tough! and i had to always be cautious with my steps to ensure that i don't fall and sprain my ankles. after the beach stretch, i started running again but my running momentum has been affected by the walk. it has difficult to regain the lost momentum, but i had no choice but to slowly regain it. when i hit the 8km mark, i started to pick up my pace again, and when i reached the final 1km mark, i went all out!

my time is : 1 hour 15 mins 32 sec

my aim was to complete the race within an hour, unfortunately, i had to stop running when i reached the beach. hence, the additional 15 mins. my cousin finished 2 mins after me. anyway, it was a really good run and i look forward to it again next year. this time, i will have to learn how to run on the beach. going home to Penang will be useful this time around.

here'a a post run photo with my cousin and her family and us having brunch after the run.

what lousy timing

2006-08-18T09:06:00.000+08:00

my run is this sunday and i've been feeling under the weather since yesterday. damn!
on the bright side, i have today and tomorrow to get fully recovered and still make it for the run on sunday.

will update on the race when i come back next week then!

this is race weekend

2006-08-14T09:18:00.000+08:00

race weekend is here and i'm a nervous wreck because this is my first 'international' race (anywhere that requires a passport is international to me) :P

my aim is to run throughout the course of the race and also to better my time... hopefully i will complete the race within an hour or less.

as i ran yesterday, today i shall take a rest. will run tomorrow and also thursday and probably friday as well. then i'll be driving down on early saturday morning.

slowly but surely

2006-08-11T10:52:00.000+08:00

i can now breeze through a 6km stretch in the gym. i have improved my distance by double compared to 3 months ago. not only i can run further, i also run faster now. i use to take 5 mins to complete 1km, now it is down to 3.5 mins per 1km.

GREAT!

can't wait to breeze through 10km in less than an hour.

bloody arse

2006-08-08T09:48:00.000+08:00

don't try to threaten me because i won't be intimidated by you. it just shows the level of your maturity and professionalism...

biatch!

you are getting more unreasonable each day and if you are not careful, you'll be making a lot of enemies...

and this is a small industry. better watch your back!

poor but happy

2006-08-03T13:59:00.000+08:00

my bank account is a few thousand ringgit poorer today. although it money was hard earned money, but it was also money well spent.

i'm taking my mom and sis to visit one of my favourite cities in South East Asia... Bangkok for a weeks' holiday, while i attend my friend's wedding.

i hope they will enjoy the land of smiles as much as me.

dragon tiger gate

2006-08-01T16:25:00.000+08:00

i do not care what the critics has to say about this movie but i absolutely love it! who cares if the movie has a weak storyline? the fighting scenes were good. cinematography was good. effects were good too. some might argue that the effects were exaggerated. but hey, it's based on a comic book, all effects in comic books are exaggerated anyway.

of course the reason i watched this movie in the first place is because of donnie yan. i absolutely love donnie yan. i mean, what is there not to like about him? he speaks fluent english. he adores his wife and daughter. he plays the piano. he looks damn good. and he is a trained martial artist.

and i have a lot of respect for martial artist having been in the art myself for 12 years of my life. whenever i see these martial artist-turned-actor on screen, i'm always amazed with their stunts, their perfect kicks, their perfect stance... somehow it makes me miss my training days. anyways, let's not go down memory lane.

dragon tiger gate will be in my permanent collection of dvd soon. can't wait to get my hands on the dvd for safe keeping.

staying home is the solution

2006-07-26T13:06:00.000+08:00

retail therapy is a shitty thing to enjoy. but i would still like to update on the list of items that i just recently bought :

1 skirt
2 belts
1 pair of shoe
5 tops
1 pair of shorts

and i've yet to recover from the Grand Spore Sale... and it's now the Malaysian Mega Sale.

Oh dear!

happy birthday papa!

2006-07-24T09:29:00.000+08:00

my dad turned 60 over the weekend. with his youthful looks, he don't look past 55, don't you reckon? =)

still an immature kid

2006-07-21T13:52:00.000+08:00

my previous boss told me that i'm an ungrateful and immature kid when i tendered. why? because i resigned 4 months after i was promoted. hence... ungrateful.

my current boss told me that i'm a selfish and immature kid when i tendered 2 days ago. and he's very dissapointed in me. why? because i'm leaving to go back to the big boys with big advertising dollar.

notice the similiarity? both bosses told me that i'm immature. why? i really do not know. am i immature for planning out my career path? am i immature to grow and expand my advertising portfolio? am i immature for accepting another agency's offer?

i cannot help what other think about me... but my stance remains. it's nothing personal, it's just business.

it's just idiotic

2006-07-18T14:09:00.000+08:00

i don't know what is becoming of our malaysian media. i mean, the events that makes headline in the leading daily is just absurb!

Last Saturday, a celebrity charity sky-diving event made front page news. yes... a charity event is news worthy because the public need more education and awareness to help those that is in need. unfortunately the charity event only had a 2-sentence mentioned towards the end of the report. instead, the report was used to highlight the up-and-coming television serial that some of the celebrity is involved in currently.

Fast forwarding to today, front page story is a wedding annoucement of malaysian darling of pop to some businessman, whom by the way is 20 years her senior. i just don't understand what is the big deal about the wedding. i mean, i'm happy that she has met the love of her life and that they are getting married... but don't you think her decision to wed someone 20 years her senior is any of our problem?? it's not like we know her personally. or are involved in her life in any way...

What about reporting on world issues? Like the terror attacks in Baghdad? Like the earth quake that hit Indonesia late last night? How we can extend our help as citizens of the world? What is the impact of these on the world economy? How the world economy will affect our everyday life here? Why is nature acting up on us? Why all the attacks?

What counts as news-worthiness these days is just absurb!

runner has a look?

2006-07-17T09:39:00.000+08:00

people are often surprised to hear that i run because i don't look like a runner. well, of course i don't look like a runner! i do not even dare to claim that i'm a runner after having just competed in 1 competition.

but i would like to look like runner someday. with the Sentosa X-Trail Race coming up in about a month, i have to get serious in my training. putting on my running shoe is easy, it's taking care of my diet that is the hardest part :(

how to scold your boss

2006-07-14T09:40:00.000+08:00

it's easy to know why Dilbert is my favourite dude!

stressed out... not about work!

2006-07-11T09:19:00.000+08:00

2 things that are stressing me up about participating in the Sentosa X-Terrain Run :

i) my fitness level
training for the Sentosa X-Terrain Race started over the weekend and frankly speaking, i don't think my fitness level is up to par. i was running outdoors with a combination of hilly slops and flat roads and even before i could complete 5km, i was almost dead! and to think that i completed a 10km run just a few weeks before in an hour! what a disgrace! i don't even want to think about how i'm going to tackle the sand / beach run as i foresee that would be the hardest.

ii) running amongst singaporeans
this annual X-Terrain event is organised by the Singapore National Service team. so can you imagine how fit these runners are gonna be?? although this race is also a 10km race, would i be able to finish within 1 hour?

starting a family

2006-07-06T09:21:00.000+08:00

my heartiest congratulations to parents-to-be : choong ling & yuri. i'm sure you both will make great parents and raise a wonderful family.

can't wait to catch up with you both when i'm down in spore again next month.

-xoxo-

again?

2006-07-04T14:40:00.000+08:00

how do i prepare myself for running on the beach / sand? how do i prepare myself for running on trail? what is running on trail anyway? why am i asking all these random questions?

because i'll be competing in the X-Terrain Challenge in Singapore on 20th August. This race includes a 6km road, 1.2m sand and 2.4km trail track.

i'm not even sure what i have gotten myself into.

suggestions are welcome.

karma

2006-07-03T16:27:00.000+08:00

i'm a firm believer of karma. i believe that what goes around will eventually come around. and i had my first taste of karma yesterday after gym.

for the past month, my media executive has been driving me up the wall, both personally and professionally... and i've been bitching about him with my best friend. so anyway, last Friday was his last day, and even though he is gone, my bestfriend and i were still bitching about him over lunch yesterday...

lo and behold, right after lunch, as i was heading out of Mid Valley to meet another friend for drinks, i ran into a an accident. i knocked the car in front of me!! but i was lucky as the driver was such a sweetheart, he let me off the hook because there were only very very minor damages to his car... PHEW!!

and when i got home, my best friend smsed me, telling me that she accidentally slammed her finger against her car door and now she has a broken finger. and she ended her sms by saying:

"no more bitching about other people... it's BAD KARMA!"

run, run, run

2006-06-27T19:09:00.000+08:00

here's a list of race i would like to participate in for the remaining of 2006:

1) Penang Bridge Half Marathon on 30th July
2) Subang USJ 10km Fun Run on 20th Aug
3) Putrajaya Half Marathon on 10th Sept
4) Mizuno Wave Run on 17th Sept
5) Singapore Half Marathon on 3rd Dec

5 races for the remaining of 6 months should be enough to keep me motivated and fully utilise my gym membership.

leave!

2006-06-27T16:13:00.000+08:00

the company got me an assistant 3 weeks ago, and last week, he tendered in his resignation. less than a month and he's leaving!!

in a way, i'm quite happy that he'll be leaving because i just can't stand young people these days! i shall not bitch about it because for all i know... the problem might just be me. someone told me that i'm a good manager when it comes to work and management deliverables but i'm a lousy manager when it comes to guiding fresh grads.

i agree.

shop, shop, shop

2006-06-22T11:26:00.000+08:00

i'm back from yet another trip to singapore... and i'm super duper broke, it's not funny! but i'm happy because unlike other trips, this time i have purchases (notice the plural?) hehehe. here's a list of things that i recently got from there :

2 pairs of New Balance running shoes
1 pair of casual / working shoes
2 tops
2 dresses - 1 pink and the other black & white
2 bags - 1 black and the other red
1 floral skirt

with the new running shoes, i shall start training for the spore half marathon in december :)

PJ Half Marathon

2006-06-18T08:53:00.000+08:00

today is the day.

reached the stadium at 5:30am and after registration, i checked out the 'competition'... i was scared and very much intimidated by the outlook of some of them. some looked super fit... some wore designer brands from head to toe, some were doing their super-duper stretches and warm-ups.... i told myself just do my best and if i finished within the top 100, it would be a bonus.

the whistle went off and people were cutting me from both left and right, but i kept my pace and kept things slow and steady, slowly counting down the distance. even when i reached the hilly areas, i didn't stop running, just merely slowed down my pace and kept on running, and running, and running...

almost towards the last 1km, i felt like dying. the feeling of so near yet so far. but i picked my speed and ran as fast as i could for the last 1km and then i crossed the finished line...

i got the 82 placing... i completed the race in 1 hour 3 mins.

no bad for a first timer eh? now i'm working towards the singapore half marathon in december.

run, yit thing, run

2006-06-16T15:42:00.000+08:00

my run is in 2 days time!! i really wanna finish within the top 100, hopefully my determination will carry me thru because during training, i can only do 6km.

will update results next week! til then, i need some good rest and some protein.

i fit into my cheong sam!

2006-06-16T10:48:00.000+08:00

move along

2006-06-14T12:42:00.000+08:00

the other day, someone asked me if i had any updates on the big bad wolf that was in my life previously.

the answer is : there won't be any more updates on the big bad wolf because i have closed that chapter in my life. i would like to think i've made a fantastic job moving on with my life. i'm happier and healthier and i looked better than i did before! (well, that's what people has been telling me anyway) ;)

as part of my moving on with life, i've secured 2 interviews in singapore next week. i'm pretty excited about that... so i shall be spending my weekend preparing for the interview. relocating to singapore for more exposure has been in my thoughts for the longest time... but this time, i've taken the initiative to do something about it, hence, the interview.

well... wish me luck!!

updates, updates, updates (episode 2)

2006-06-05T18:02:00.000+08:00

more updates that i left out earlier...

1) boss got me a spanking new compaq presario B2800 laptop. this baby is such a beauty... it's white (goes every nicely with my ipod video), it's light, it's sleek... it's beautiful

2) i managed to get back in touch with a long lost buddy. we've lost touch for almost 8 years and it's just amazing how our path crossed again. we've been trying to catch up since then and will be meeting up for lunch soon. i can't wait!!

3) did i mention that i had my salary review and that i got a raise?? yoo-hoo!!

-the end-

updates, updates, updates...

2006-06-05T09:30:00.000+08:00

i've been 'gone' for quite a while and loads had happened during the time i was 'away'...

1) i finally got myself a new car. i've been driving it for almost 1.5 months now and seriously... i must say that i love my car!! it goes zoom zoom zoom across town. although i'm practically broke nowadays, i still love my car :)

2) my agency has finally moved into the new office. the whole experience has been somewhat exciting because i was involved in the entire process. we're still located in the posh area of damansara heights, and the office is located in The Epicure. Even the name of the building sounds posh... don't you reckon?

3) with the new office, i now have a team. my media executive has joined me and i must say he's a good boy - hardworking, humble, willing to learn. however, i'm not the best manager to learn from but i will try my best to teach and be patient with him.

4) my marathon is merely 2 weeks away and so far, i can manage 6km of running. this weekend i shall attempt 8km. i can see my fitness level improving.

5) with the improvement of my fitness level, i finally fit into my cheong sam again!! i have NOT wore that cheong sam for a least 5 years, and had always hoped to fit into it again. Lo and behold... it's a reality now and i reckon i'll wear that to a wedding dinner this weekend.

6) and last but not least... one of the most exciting news is... MY COUSIN IS COMING BACK FOR A VISIT IN DEC!!! i'm so excited because we've not met for at least 8 years... couz... if you are reading, you have to at least stay the weekend with me.

to be... or not to be...

2006-05-18T11:05:00.000+08:00

to be a big fish in south east asia.... or a small fish across 5 continents?

the coolest industry to be in...

2006-05-09T17:32:00.000+08:00

being in the advertising industry is just so overrated...

i'm in the midst of recruitment to form my little media team. i have over 200 applications varying from fresh grads to executives searching for a change of industry. my fave question is "why advertising?" and the answers i get are a far cry from the truth...

...they describe how advertising is so cool, always out and about, meetings here, meetings there, hardly in the office, how they can't stand to be in the office 9-5, how they don't fancy doing paperwork because it's so clerical...

well to set the record straight, we're always out and about because we're cheap despatch. we're hardly in the office because we're always held back at the clients office, and 80% of the meetings we attend are a bloody waste of time and energy. we seems to be chilling out in the evening because that 30mins of chilling will be followed by another 5 hours in the office, and with the various reports we have to do, we have to be clerical. we're just basically the client's slave.

so, to all the people hoping for a change thinking that the grass is greener on the advertising side... stop hoping.

and to fresh grads, be prepared to be over work and under paid.

men are...

2006-05-05T15:26:00.000+08:00

... selfish bastards... stupid liars... bloody cheaters...

even if they started out as good guys... eventually they will turn into selfish bastards, stupid liars and bloody cheaters... it's only a matter of time...

suppose it's a good thing that i found out sooner rather than later....

clearer than ever before

2006-05-02T10:32:00.000+08:00

i'm back from yet another trip from singapore... and it was GREAT!! i managed to catch up with my friends and my cousin. also managed to meet Vibes Singapore colleagues and now i can put a name to a face...

my friend looked absolutely fab and i was not surprise that she won the 'best dressed' category at a dinner & dance party she attended with her hubby... congrats yuri!! you've always been so beautiful... and will continue to be gorgeous!! junlin... you're a lucky guy!!

it was such a pleasure to be chilling out with my cousin. my niece and nephew are such angels and real sweethearts!! we had home cooked dinner and after that, we had a wonderful time just lounging in the garden, talking and discussing about many things in life.

but the most important outcome from this trip was it has helped me reinforced my decision about staying single. and i have gotten rid of yet another item that was given to me previously...

i got rid of my old mobile phone and got myself a brand new motorola pink v3.

men!

2006-04-28T12:09:00.000+08:00

Men are like Laxatives - They irritate the shit outta you
Men are like Weather - Nothing can be done to change them
Men are like Blenders - You need one, but you're not quite sure why
Men are like Commercials - You can't believe a word they say
Men are like Government Bonds - They take sooooooooo long to mature
Men are like Mascara - They usually run at the first sign of emotion
Men are like Lava Lamps - Fun to look at, but not very bright
Men are like Parking Spots - All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped

That is why i've been telling people around me time and again the reason i'm single, why i choose to be single and why i'm not gonna be bothered with any relationships anymore.

I mean... i earn my own living, i purchased my own car, and a family mechanic helps with the maintenance, if i have a flat, i can fixed it myself, i purchased my own house, i'm good with DIY furnitures from IKEA, and if i need someone to fix the pipe, or lights or whatever that is not functioning, there's always the plumper, the electrician... i pay for my own holiday, i solve my own problems, i pay for my own shopping, i take care of myself, and if i fall sick, the doctor will take care of me... so someone please tell me why the heck do i need a man in my life???

and Bob Marley sang... "no woman, no cry"... for me, it should be "no man, no cry"

sap sap sui...

2006-04-27T11:39:00.000+08:00

this year, i decided to fill up my tax form myself... and it is actually not that difficult. i have always imagined it to be a total nightmare... i was so wrong! i mean, there were some hiccups here and there, but nothing too major, and nothing that can't be solved over the telephone with my dad's accountant :)

i feel like such a grown up now... having done my taxation myself... having bought myself a new car... and having bought a house as well... now my aim to get myself to russia for a holiday!!

quarterly review

2006-04-19T17:04:00.000+08:00

It's 4 months into 2006 and i guess it's time to review the new year solutions i did back in January:

1. to get fit and run a half marathon - will be running in my first half marathon this coming June!! Have to really focus on my training now.

2. to get fitter and run a full marathon

3. to get fitter and make at least a new friend at the gym - HA! Still no new friends in the gym. And i doubt i'll be making any new friends in the near future... thanks to my new 5th Generation iPod.

4. to be nicer to my sis / parents / family - trying, trying, trying still

5. to go see angkor wat - YES!! Going in September. I reckon i deserved a good birthday getaway :)

6. to attend my friend's wedding in bangkok, and shop

7. to visit my friend and cousin in singapore - hopefully will be able to see them next weekend :)

8. to get an increment - STILL HOPING FOR IT, and working hard for it...

9. to get a newer car - SOON SOON... my new car should be out by next weekend. FINALLY!!

10. to clear off all my credit card debt - still trying hard :(

Hmmm... i think i'm doing a pretty good job as i will be achieving half of them... not bad at all, not bad at all (pat on the back, hehehe)

it's funny, but i'd DIE if this happens

2006-04-18T15:41:00.000+08:00

arrggghhhh

2006-04-10T15:28:00.000+08:00

frustrated. annoyed. irksome. discouraged. pressured.

blame it on technology!!

2006-04-05T14:21:00.000+08:00

i was so pissed at my brand new ipod yesterday that i almost threw it against the wall. i just simply cannot tolerant when technology don't work like they are supposed to. i mean... i did pay for the technology didn't i? and it's supposed to be an apple isn't it? and apple equals one of the best technology does it not? so how can it not function as it's supposed to???

so i bitched about my frustrations to my friends and a good friend said this to say "maybe it's the user that is stupid" Hahahahhahahah... that is so funny, NOT!! i mean, i was fuming mad, and he was cracking jokes with me?!?!?!

all the frustrations were driving me nuts... it was also driving my friends nuts. hence, i tuck the supposedly 'the top 5 coolest gadget' (as mentioned on fly fm this morning) to own into my bag, hoping to forget about it.

after a good nite's sleep... i finally managed to get it running, and i'm happy to say that now my ipod has got songs in there!! soon, i shall attempt to download movies and music videos. i mean, it's a bloody 30GB gadget, might as well make full use of it!

i still refuse to believe that the user was stupid... i choose to believe that it was simply not 'user friendly'.

hahahahahhahahaha... now i can laugh about it ;)

weekend breakaway - part 1

2006-03-31T10:05:00.000+08:00

i'm very excited about going away for the weekend.... even if it's only singapore.

i'm excited about my journey tomorrow
i'm excited about shopping in Singapore
i'm excited about the exhibition
i'm excited about cathing up with my Singaporean friends
i'm excited about chilling out and slipping Singapore Sling

i'm just excited....

blah blah blah

2006-03-30T15:06:00.000+08:00

some random thoughts that's been on my mind lately...

1. cheaper cars. why am i not jumping for joy?? isn't this something that i've been waiting for?? frankly speaking i would dread driving even more in the near future because the number of cars on the road will increase but the road system is not ready for such an increase in volume, hence traffic congestion is just going to get worse. by the time the relevant authorities realised this, traffic will be a nightmare due to road construction.

2. gym culture. i seriously do not comprehend the fuss over this 'gym culture' thingy. no, i have not met anybody there. no, i don't think 'after some time' i would be meeting anybody too. gimme a break! i go to the gym because it helps me managed my stress and helps me stay on focus. my gym culture is very straight forward... i get in, i do cardio, i do weights, i stretch, then i go home. i don't talk to people, i don't chat people up and nobody chat up with me. period. end of story.... oh... and if you wonder why i have not slimed down, nor looked better, that's because i still enjoy eating. probably too much of eating... anyways, there's more to life than monitoring the weighing machine.

3. young people these days! the company i'm in is going through and expansion drive and i've been going thru resumes and conducting interviews to expand my team because currently, my team consists of me, myself and i. it is no wonder the unemployment rate for graduates are on the rise.... it is because of their attitude!! they think they are too smart for their own good. they demand a certain salary because they are degree holder. they are late for their interview. they are not prepared for the interview. sigh... all i can say is... 'young people these days, they drive me nuts!!'

4. missing my brother.... i've not seen him for about a week. it feels weird because i'm so used to seeing him every single day - morning before i go to work, and at night during dinner. and after 28 years, not having him around the house, or hanging out in each other's room is just too weird. it feels like something's missing, something's not right. i used to complain that i seldom get to wash my car because my car is park outside the house. now that i can put my car nearer to the porch, i miss seeing his green car. I MISS MY BROTHER!!

i think it's enough blabbling for one afternoon... so long now!!

Bitcthology

2006-03-29T10:03:00.000+08:00

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch.
When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch.
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way,they call me a bitch.
Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart.
It means Ilive my life MY way.
It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.

When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, I am definedas a bitch.
The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.
It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken, opinionated and determined.
I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!
So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't succeed.
And if that makes me a bitch, so be it.

I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.

B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself

B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman

B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything

"If you can't do something right, get a woman to do it."

happily ever after...

2006-03-21T17:52:00.000+08:00

After the much anticipated countdown, the wedding is finally over and the newly-weds will be going off to their honeymoon soon. I reckon the wedding was a success because the food was good, the wine tasted great, everyone dressed up real nicely and the bride and groom were gorgeous.

Would I want to get married?
The answer is… I don’t think so.
Why?
Because…

… of the cost incurred
… of the amount of preparations
… of the amount of cleaning up
… of a certain aunt will drive you up the wall
… of ridiculous family politics
… of expectation to give birth
… of in-laws

Then again, sometimes I think I would like to get married.
Why?
Because…

… of the beautiful wedding photos shots
… of the beautiful wedding gowns
… honeymoon

Anyway, I’m so single at the moment, and I really think that I’ll remain single for a long time. Hence, no worries and no pressure.

Let the countdown begin...

2006-03-07T11:11:00.000+08:00

Its 4 days to my brother’s wedding and I have mixed emotions. Mostly I’m happy and excited. But certain times I cannot help but feel frustrated, not towards my brother, but more of towards the organisation of the event itself and my relatives. Actually, it’s only a certain aunt that is basically driving everybody up the wall. It came to a point over last weekend that I blew off my top and sort of told her to just mind her own business as this is my brother’s wedding and he should have the last say to everything.

Anyway, let’s focus on the wedding, the bride and the groom and NOT the annoying aunt.

I’m obviously happy because MY BROTHER IS GETTING MARRIED THIS WEEKEND!! I love him to the core. We’ve always been close growing up and to see him now taking another step in his life is amazing. But it’s going to take a lot of getting use to not having him next door to my room anymore, or having him around the house for that matter. Growing up, we created secret codes by knocking on the wall that separates our room for ‘talking’ to each other when we’re supposed to be in bed. He fetched me everywhere I needed to go when he got his drivers license. He blackmailed each other and we also ganged up together to go against our parents… he is the best brother any sis could ask for.

I just want to wish them a happy future together!! Cheers!!

St Valentine

2006-02-07T09:19:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year is not over yet but it seems to me like the media and shopping malls are already banging on Valentine's Day. on the way to work and during working hours, i have my trusted radio switched on and it's all about this V-Day contest on this station, and another V-Day contest on another station. Even the newspapers had a V-Day supplement! In the malls, every other boutique / shop is having some V-Day promotion.

THIS IS ANNOYING THE HELL OUT OF ME!!

Not because i'm pathetically single, but because it is all so over-rated. If you really love someone, shouldn't every day be a V-Day?

Ok, maybe i'm just a tad jaded with life, especially during this season as everywhere i turn, couples are everywhere! GIMME A BREAK already!!

what should i do??

2006-01-25T16:50:00.000+08:00

So I thought i would have found closure after the betrayal. But the truth is, I'm doing worse. We had a talk and from then onwards, there're just so many questions that they are driving me nuts.

We wanna patch things up. But how are we gonna patch things up when he's still seeing that biatch? Can I trust him the way I trusted him before? If he really wants to try to work things out between us shouldn't he be calling me more often? Shouldn't he put more effort in seeing me? Instead, he hasn't called since Monday. My heart is telling me to forget about it because I have a funny feeling that the reason he called was because she was not available.

I'm not a stalker, but my sources told me that she has been away for training and will only be back probably tomorrow. My source has also told me that she has denied the relationship with him. I mean, how sad is that? How can a relationship survive when there are so many lies? It's been months, and he has not even brought her home. He's friends are not aware of the new girl in his life. In fact, everyone has been fooled all along. I believe in karma and the fact that what goes around, comes around. With the revelation of her denying the relationship means something?

The decision should be an easy one. I should just cut clear of everything that has to do with him. I should just end our friendship.

But on the other hand, what if this is all a test? God would not put me through such a tough test, would he? What if I do not meet anyone again? People make mistakes, but they do deserve a 2nd chance, don't they?

I'm really going nuts over this matter. Hence, I have decided that I will be seeking a help from a medium to make a decision for me.

slap stick silly

2006-01-09T09:23:00.000+08:00

there's no better way to cheer myself up than watching slap-stick comedy. in no time, i was laughing so hard that i almost chocked on my food!

Dude, Where's My Car is about two bumbling stoners, who woke up one morning from a night of partying and cannot remember where they parked their car which prompts them on a journey to find it.

Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle is quite similar to the former movie, but the lead actors are asians - one a Korean American investment banker; the other an Indian American medical school candidate -- go through a life changing journey, as they spend a night roaming the state of New Jersey in search of White Castle hamburgers.

i never enjoyed sunday nite this much!! no sunday nite blues as i laughed them all away!

my 2006 list (updated)

2006-01-04T15:54:00.000+08:00

4 days into 2006 and i have not figured out my new year resolutions. i've never really made new year resolutions and i don't believe in them... so why should i start this year? but then again, maybe i should set goals for myself to achieve this year. so when the end of 2006 comes around, i can have an annual review on my achievements! we're only on the 4th day of 2006 and i'm already thinking about the end of it! muahahahahhaha....

so my goals for this year are:

1. to get fit and run a half marathon
2. to get fitter and run a full marathon
3. to get fitter and make at least a new friend at the gym
4. to be nicer to my sis
5. to be nicer to my parents
6. to go see angkor wat
7. to attend my friend's wedding in bangkok, and shop
8. to visit my friend and cousin in singapore
9. to get an increment
10. to get a newer car
11. to clear off all my credit card debt

i think that should be all... can't have too many goals or else i'll drive myself crazy! will be updating on my progress from time to time...

2006

2005-12-30T12:08:00.000+08:00

i just wanna share this sms i received from a friend just a while ago...

"don't say sorry anymore. the new year is coming... must say good good very good!"

i think she's right! good good very good 2006 everyone!!

6 months liao

2005-12-28T10:52:00.000+08:00

after 6 months probation, i'm now a confirmed staff!
my appraisal went quite well... only improvements on certain areas are needed.
no increment for the time being, but overall, i'm happy.

am i crazy?!?!

2005-12-28T09:16:00.000+08:00

it's weird....

he has betrayed me, and yet i can forgive him so easily. somehow, there is still a glimmer of hope that he'll come to his senses and find his way again. everyone make mistakes and everybody deserves a second chance. if he asked for it i think i'll give him another second chance.

I HAVE TO MOVE ON!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!?!

stylo-milo

2005-12-27T13:56:00.000+08:00

and i also wanna add that i was so proud of myself yesterday night.

i needed to confront him and get it out of my system. i did. and i did it with grace because i was so calm and i did not shed a single tear.

this is what i call closure with style!

hahahhahahahhaha

CLOSURE... FINALLY!!

2005-12-27T11:09:00.000+08:00

never in my life i wished i was wrong. the ugly truth hurts so deeply and this betrayal is too much to bear. but you know what... i've always been strong, and i will continue to be strong.

i no longer have the anger. it saddened me to know that after all these years of friendship; you have to betray me like this. but I won’t call you names… and i do not hate you. i just pray that you’ll find your way around again and be the person you were before.

and you can stop pretending to worry about me. i’m closing this chapter of my life. i know now that i can move on with my life and start 2006 afresh.

i have finally found closure. i wish you all the best and that she treats you well.

good bye for good.

Destiny's Child - Survivor

Now that you're out of my life I'm so much better

You thought that I'd be weak without you But I'm stronger

You thought that I'd be broke without you But I'm richer

You thought that I'd be sad without you I laugh harder

You thought I wouldn't grow without you Now I'm wiser

Though that I'd be helpless without you But I'm smarter

You thought that I'd be stressed without you But I'm chillin'

You thought I wouldn't sell without you Sold 9 million

I'm a survivor

I'm not gon give up

I'm not gon stop

I'm gon work harder

I'm a survivor

I'm gonna make it

I will survive

Keep on survivin'

Thought I couldn't breathe without I'm inhaling

You thought I couldn't see without you Perfect vision

You thought I couldn't last without you But I'm lastin'

You thought that I would die without you But I'm livin'

Thought that I would fail without you But I'm on top

Thought it would be over by now But it won't stop

Thought that I would self destruct But I'm still here

Even in my years to come I'm still gon be here

I'm wishin' you the best

Pray that you are blessed

Bring much success, no stress, and lots of happiness(I'm better than that)

I'm not gon blast you on the radio(I'm better than that)

I'm not gon lie on you and your family(I'm better than that)

I'm not gon hate on you in the magazines('m better than that)

I'm not gon compromise my Christianity(I'm better than that)

You know I'm not gon diss you on the Internet

Cause my mama taught me better than that

After of all of the darkness and sadness

Soon comes happiness

If I surround my self with positive things

I'll gain prosperity

i got no life...

2005-12-23T09:00:00.000+08:00

after a 4 day hiatus, i hit the gym yesterday evening and spent a good 2 hours there doing cardio and weights... and it felt really good!

yes... i think i'm becoming a gym junkie.

a friend has reminded me that i should stay away from the gym this Christmas season because that will only further confirm my single-hood... hence... the lack of a social life!

hahahahhahahahahah... whatever....

eeyer... cannot tahan

2005-12-21T15:09:00.000+08:00

i don't like rude people.

i don't like it when they conveniently take magazines from my desk without asking for my permission. i mean... i don't mind them borrowing the magazines. the magazines are not mine but company's property... but still, the magazines are all addressed to me and i think it is basic courtesy to ask permission. and what makes it worst is the fact that the magazine will not be returned.

i hate it more when someone else opened something that is clearly addressed to me... for example, the Christmas goodies that i've been 'supposedly' receiving lately. just awhile ago, someone went... wah yit thing... this media owner sent you a cake as a Christmas present... soooo nice... come and see it for yourself. and before i can go collect my pressie... she's happily eating the cake away! wah lau eh.... this is too much!!

i can't stand it anymore!!!!!!! i just needed to blog it out.

Sei lor...

2005-12-20T09:17:00.000+08:00

i always tune into the hitz.fm morning crew in the morning. their wacky topic of conversation / discussion each morning makes morning traffic a bit more bearable. today's headline was : why are there so many single women in malaysia?

it is supposedly reported that 70% of women here are single. the men to women ratio now stands at 15 : 1... imagine that!!

with the rate this is going, i think i will be single for a long long time. with half the men here are either married / attached... and the other half gay...

need i say more??

sigh....

The perfect gift...

2005-12-09T15:28:00.000+08:00

i'd like to think that i've got the perfect wedding gift for my brother and future sis-in-law... i got them a 4 day 3 night trip to Bali. it might have dented my bank account a bit, but to me, it is worth every single cent spent as he's my one and only big brother.

all i hope for now is that they'll be as excited as i am now when they receive their wedding gift next year!!

my latest addiction...

2005-12-01T11:02:00.000+08:00

... weights ....